Open Your Eyes

--> There's always a first step.

From this point onwards, I want this to be the nexus of my online experience. The page which is always open that links me to the rest of my online persona (more on my online persona later) and the page that I can look back on and find myself inspired. If I'm down or feeling less than stellar, I'll write something in LiveJournal - It's adequately depressing there. But when I find myself conquering fears and motivated, this is where I'll come. When I have a huge inspirational epiphany, I'll come here. When I have a moment which I can't explain, but is totally awesome, I'll come here and throw a few words down. When I'm over the freaking moon, I'll come here. So in saying that, hopefully I'll be here a lot :)

I think it's probably a good idea to explain who I am. Or at least try. Here's the side of me that sites like bebo just can't show. Born and raised in Hamilton, I went to a primary, an intermediate and a high school. I had a pretty typical childhood and my parents are still together today. Mum taught me empathy, kindness, faith and how to cook. Dad taught me patience, loyalty, modesty and the usefulness of being multi skilled/talented. They both taught me stubbornness. I've seen both of them at their strongest and their weakest and I've gained a lot from that insight, I also have the utmost respect for them because of this. Also very important to who I am are my friends. They inspire me - hopefully vice-versa too. They are great to be around and a few of them have helped me out in the most amazing ways. Some of them can be bastards and some of them just don't quite see things the way I do. Either way, I'm thankful for em' they make all this worthwhile.

I've changed since even last year. I think I see the world differently than most people do. I'm never quick to pass judgement. I'm optimistic, even if it means I get dissed for the fact. I'm definitely not cynical, but still retain certain reservations so as to keep my sense intact. I have replaced an over-compensating shadow of confidence with a genuine sense of comfort and appreciation for who and where I am. I have these moments of crystal clarity where I see everything for what they are.. it's hard to explain, but all the subtext of a situation gets washed away and you're left with fundamental importance. I also have these nostalgic feelings about places I've never been to. This is even harder to explain, I mean how can I explain nostalgia of an experience I've never had. I see beauty beneath the rubble. I see the match light in a blackened room. I see people for who they are, nothing more and certainly nothing less. I am who I am, I'm probably the only one who totally knows what that means, but there are definitely a other people who understand me better than most. Hahaha yea, and they know who they are ;)